Images from my camera phone

Hello my friends. It’s hard to put into words what I feel in my heart and I don’t want to risk getting all sentimental and teary. I mean, let’s face it: I knew my husband would die from brain cancer. I just didn’t see it coming that particular day, if you can believe that. In the end, he was exhibiting all the end-stage symptoms but because I was right in the middle of it, I guess I chose not to see it.

Know what’s really great? Well, there’s lots of things that are really great, but the two that are most prominent are the fact that no matter what happened at the end, I knew I would have to live with my actions for the rest of my life. I was determined not to get exasperated or frustrated and to do the best I possibly could. I ended up getting a little exasperated and was a little frustrated as well but I did my best for him. I can easily live with myself for how I handled things. The other great thing is that I wrote in the pages of this blog since late 2007 almost daily about the good times, of which there were many. And I can go back and read about how lucky I was and how my life played out while he was either ill or in remission. I am so blessed to have these snippets of our life – complete with pictures.

And I have some advice for you whether you want to hear it or not.

Don’t wait to tell someone how much they mean to you, how much you love them. Tell  them. Show them. Love them every day. Ok? I’ll stop now.

I returned late last night from being away for four days in Maine. I took a family trip with my sons and met my husband’s folks in Bar Harbor. Here are a few photos that I just downloaded from my camera phone. I edited them during the trip while one of my sons was taking a turn driving. Kept me busy playing with the phone. These were all edited using Aviary.

Going through Providence, RI.

View from our hotel balcony in Old Orchard Beach

where we stayed for a night on our way to Bar Harbor.

Ocean at Old Orchard Beach.

Shaun walking George.

George and me.

Cadillac Mountain above the clouds.

I hadn’t been paying much attention at all to current events these past two weeks, so when the government shut down Tuesday morning and the national parks closed, it was a shock to hear. Especially since we’d been there the very day prior. How fortunate we were to be able to see the beautiful Acadia National Park while we were away.

I am still going through the many comments left on the previous posts. I hadn’t been spending much time online and am still only slowly getting back to this new reality of mine. I plan to return to work on Oct. 15.

Hope all is well in your world ~

Thanks for stopping by to visit me in mine.

A note on George, since so many commenters have mentioned him and asked how he’s handling all of this. George began pulling away several months ago when he realized his master wasn’t quite right anymore. He switched to our son and to me and he basically kept his distance from my husband who seemed to prefer this new arrangement. Hope I’ve explained this properly. But really – George is in a very good place.