Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Heavenly day

Despite the fact that I overslept this morning, I still had a heavenly day. I hope this doesn’t sound selfish, but sometimes at the end of my day when I know I’ll be home soon, I look forward to the fact that the only responsibility I have is for my pets. I miss my husband every day, and I see him everywhere on this property – the way he used to walk with his hiking poles, fixing fence when he was well, all the memories I have of our life here. But lately, I am feeling the lightness of just being. And of getting into my own kind of normal. And I am finding that I actually like it.

I can do this.

 

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It is growing dark as I near home, and I hardly have time to rush upstairs and change out of my work clothes and into my walking clothes before it gets too dark to walk the perimeter of the property. In the dark, those thick tree roots threaten to trip me up and it’s less dangerous walking in the center.

Today when I let him out, George took off for the southeast corner of the property. He seemed excited as he sniffed around and trotted about down there. I left him there for a little bit to go back inside for my camera and then called him to come.

 

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Here he comes.

He is a good boy.

 

 

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The cat is outside with us too and she’s heading for the yard where George is now waiting for me with his frisbee.

 

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The sky had such a beautiful glow.

 

 

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And we played frisbee against this dramatic backdrop.

 

 

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And it was heavenly.

 

 

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He looks weird here but I’m adding it to the post regardless.

I like the leaves.

 

 

And I like this tune.

 

 

Until tomorrow, then ~

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ps – all of the images in this post, with the exception of George, are SOOC (Straight Out Of Camera) with slight sharpening as the only edit.

45 comments:

becky up the hill said...

It is good to hear from you. Truly it is.

Nellie said...

Beautiful photographs, Kate! It is good to read of your progress. Hugs, Nellie

beth said...

i love your attitude....and heavenly days are such a blessing....

or are they just an attitude?

xoxo

Sheila said...

Beautiful pics Kate, I especially love the image of George, what a great companion he is.

spindrift,maine said...

This is what I imagine it will be for me, too, one day. Yes, missing him, but happy to be free of caregiving. I am glad you are there. I'll get there, some day. xo

Low Tide High Style said...

So glad you are walking your own path and being honest with others. I also felt a sense of relief, mixed with great sadness when my mother died after having been so sick. At first I felt guilty, but then realized it was just part of the process of grieving, for which there are no rules, just whatever works for you! Lovely images!

xo Kat

mrs mediocrity said...

That was a gorgeous sky... oh my. xoxo

Jeanne Walker said...

Heavenly days are blessings which give birth to good feelings and lightened spirits! What a sunset...beautiful!!! xo

BB said...

'Lightness of Being' ... love that line. That's a really nice place to find yourself, after a rough ride. Hugs to George. xxx

Peppermint Ph.D. said...

Just be...
Love that George :)

it's me said...

Beautiful sunsets --each moment more stunning than the one before

I do perimeter walks too.

Bluebird49 said...

How heavenly it is! Oh, and Sweetie, I never doubted you can do this---not once. You have a strength that reaches beyond your fingertips, your keyboard and screen that has told me this in every single post---and I've read every single one, going back to 2007. Don't know how I got here, but your posts have truly meant more than you know. Life is...strange and beautiful, from near and far; we all share so much --- although it may look so different at times! Humanity is us! <3

jinxxxygirl said...

George doesn't look weird just....
intense...... its the nature of the breed... lol Hugs! deb

thecatalanway said...

It lifted my heart to read your words this morning. May you feel many more moments such as these. Life in all its bitter sweet glory. I agree with Bluebird and couldn't put it better myself. lots of love Kate x

Anonymous said...

Simply beautiful photos. Thank you for sharing.

Devon said...

What beautiful photos, even George! Your approach to life is inspiring.. Thanks for sharing!

Carolynn Anctil said...

I love that you're experiencing more days like this.

May you have many more.

Blessings,
Carolynn
A Glowing Ember

Jamie said...

Love the photos. I'm not a fan of the shorter days, but I always find the sunsets and colors spectacular this time if year. Something about gloaming that makes even tending chickens magical. And Patty Griffin is one of my favorites!

Daryl said...

i overslept too .. must be a result of sleeping under snuggly comforters and knowing that its flippin' cold out there ... brrrr

Hilary said...

Oh, I so get it. I miss my mother too, but the relief of not having to take care of her, of not watching her get sicker and sicker.......ah...yes, lightness of being.
Starting over, letting that go.
It is good,it really is. It is the cycle of life.

Rain said...

Ha.... George does look a little weirded out!! Maybe he saw something in the beautiful sky....... Great photos Kate!
Rain :)

Connie in Hartwood said...

The leaves are pretty, but I like George better.

Karen thisoldhouse2.com said...


YOu go girl. Just that. xo

The JR said...

Awesome Kate.

I love the blaze of glory in the pictures.

Actually I thought that was a great pic of Georgie!

Debbie From Illinois said...

Oh my, that picture of George cracks me up! I imagine him saying.....Mom, Mom, MOM!!

Country Gal said...

Not selfish at all , human ! I am so glad to hear you are good . Wonderful photos . George was on a mission like Miggs gets on them and the realizes she is farther away from Mama then she would like to be and comes charging back just like George full tilt lol ! Thanks for sharing . Have a good week !

mudmaven said...

Such lovely images! A present at the end of the day. I agree with Hilary - it is the cycle of life and it is pure joy to just go with it and enjoy it - you are entirely deserving of that. Love the pix of George - what a face! ~chris

Smalltowngiggles said...

The sunrises and sunsets here in Iowa have been beautiful as well. A great reminder that God is with us always. Take care, Rose

Cait O'Connor said...

I agree with most of the previous comments and can feel your strength and ease in just being. You have a beautiful place to come home to and animals too. Heartlifting stuff indeed, thank you.

Achieve1dream said...

Love the photos! I'm glad you're finding a new normal. :)

Michelle said...

Finding a new normal; that's a good thing. I'm having to find a new normal with my MIL moving to town, and my husband spending more waking hours with her than me and inviting her to do most things with us (like taking her with us for my birthday dinner last night)....

Michelle said...

Finding a new normal; that's a good thing. I'm having to find a new normal with my MIL moving to town, and my husband spending more waking hours with her than me and inviting her to do most things with us (like taking her with us for my birthday dinner last night)....

Lee Owenby said...

Love the photo of George. It looks like he's trying to tell you something.

Glad you seem to be finding yourself and the things that make you happy.

Lee

Chrissykat said...

Wow...those photos look like raging fire in the background! I so miss the beauty of areas like yours. It's nice you don't take it for granted. Always nice to see Blackie doing well. Autumn leaves, a kitty & Patty Griffin...life is good.

sharon said...

I LOVE sunsets! They are gorgeous. Glad to hear your finding your niche in life. It's weird, but yet liberating. hmmm. Hope you have a great week. Hey it's hump day...picture the camel! :) 2 more days until the weekend!

Chesapeake Bay Woman said...

Just wonderful.

I particularly love hearing you are embracing a new normal.

Stickhorsecowgirls said...

Yes, I have discovered the lightness of being, too...a sign of health, I think. C

Kerri Farley said...

Do No Feel Guilty..... it is good to move forward!!
Love your pics....and Sweet George is just so darn adorable!!
And LOVE that tune ....she sounded a bit like Bonnie Raitt when I first listened.

Reena said...

So happy for you finding your pace. Lightness of being is a great place to be. We could use a little of that now. Ralph's sister just went into Hospice. We hate being so far away at this time. :(

Hilary said...

I'm glad you're doing okay. Your photos are gorgeous as always, dear Kate.

Susan said...

I love George's pix. And the sky is incredible.

May you find your new path with ease.

Donna S. said...

Ahh, just real emotions....the truth. Happy to hear you are settling in to a new normal. I'm sure there will be more adjusting. Life has been kicking my behind lately, also. Several hard unexpected deaths (no one as close as a spouse!), Mom really deteriorating, rehab hospital transferring to nursing home Monday....very very sad. But did go to ATL to sit with 4+ year old grandson this last week. I'm tired but had a great time. Ahhh LIFE!!

Hedy King said...

Kate, good to hear you are "doing this". I've decided we have no other choice than to do it. I'm imagining it is OK until it is OK. Faking it until we make. I'm enjoying some little things in life I had let go for quite awhile. Step by step we will get through. Love your photos. Hedy

GailO said...

Gorgeous sunset! There really have been some stunners this month of November. Always good to see George:)

Lili said...

Oh wow...you already had posted the link for the song I was going to look up and listen to. What a beautiful soulful song. I am picturing you playing frisbee with George in that dramatic end of day glow as I listen. xo